Persephone Abbott

Posts tagged “Poem

Reflections in Germany 2025

Posted on May 2, 2025

I recall the coolness the moment I stepped into the hall, and I remember the odor of wood polish. It was July and I was seventeen.  I might have looked like I had a lot going on, but I didn’t. Coming from the north by car, I was deposited into the care of my father’s German translator by my American Field Service host and hostess who didn’t quite know what to do with me.  Tecklenburg had been a strain. It was a small and cosy town on a hill with a medieval ruin in Westfalia. A theater had been set up between the walls of the former castle. Along with the members of my host family, I stood on stage in the rain dressed…

Some things to be gone

Posted on February 28, 2025

I want some things to be gone like revoking a passport no more designated grace Just looking across the border the landscape appears about the same asthe acre I’m standing onThe guardnearest in a box and boredDoes it all have to make sense?the world I meandoes my trauma have to fityour trauma for either of usto haul a pad of ink out of a desk drawerstamp a visa and approve entry

After the Diagnosis: Part Seven

Posted on February 8, 2025

I was cleaning up dried out cat puke under the piano. I hadn’t noticed it before because I rarely go to the piano. Standing in front of the keyboard, I felt a vague inclination to lift the cover and sit down. This is the first time in three years, or since the beginning of the crisis that led to autism diagnosis, that I have actually almost wanted to play the piano.  For about twenty-five years of my life, I stood on stage and performed as a classical singer. But when I was young and started working in opera companies, I quickly understood that something was wrong. I would crawl home after rehearsals and performances shaking, never comprehending how my colleagues carried on afterwards, going…

After the Diagnosis: Part Three

Posted on January 18, 2025

A love poem. The call was for a love poem. This was more than ten years ago and I don’t write love poems or, more specifically, poems about lovers. I remember I pulled out a few lines I had written in conjunction with a specific plumbing tool, the name to which had engendered some fascination in me. This was back when I was living in my little row house in a small town in the Netherlands and there were more than enough recurring issues concerning the plumbing to enhance my vocabulary. I thought I could tweak those few lines into some type of fathomable love poem and successfully submit it. I was sadly mistaken.  * This is an example of my confusion about romantic…

The Next Move

Posted on September 18, 2024

Spacing out in the airporton a toilet, almost no sleepwaiting for a connecting flightI think I might be hallucinatingA month quickly gone byvisiting family and friendstrying to put togetherwhat happened to my fatherThe duffle bag in front of my feet — never out of sight — filled with memorabilialovingly donated by hisfriends and familyI look up at my handbaghanging on a hook against the stall wallchecking if that too is movingThe duffle bag isrocking back and forthnot far from my toes

Goodwill

Posted on August 28, 2024

This box of Dots”good choice”the cashier saidafter he’d explainedhis black eyeIt was a beautywaltzed rightinto his epidurmis via a tumble down the stairsHe set the candy box aside, pointed his scannerat one of two bookswithout commentreading 1.99My second choice no sticker”This a children’s book?”he asked”Say yes,” he instructed meplacing Billy Collinsback down on the counterDays later I thoughthe hadn’t been too far from the truth.

Magnanimity, a poem

Posted on March 30, 2024

Magnanimity is a poem that reflects growing older and the feelings of panic and fear that surrounded us as we grow up that ease away over time because “it” hasn’t happened and we don’t want to think about these possibilities happening anymore. Perhaps modern life has less focus on church-going or religious practices and many don’t feel that religion has any purpose, certainly not as a backup plan when facing earthly dangers, and then again religion itself can be toxic and dangerous. It’s as if we have become more callous in a “getting-over-it” way and humanity has, in the meantime and as long habit, solved nothing when it comes to ending wars and strife.

Lamento: All That I Read

Posted on January 22, 2024

All that I readis not my storypiled under piecesof furniture I’vecollected books from other people’s bookshelves like the air delivers dust and in myhome it gathers in the form of blocks of prose behind my reading chairunder the wardrobejammed against the wallbetween the kitchen and the bathroomjust in case I might pause midway for some literature.

In Memoriam P. B. 1939 – 2023

Posted on December 25, 2023

The Best Cup of Coffee in the WorldIt was most delicious – especiallyprepared for me by a dying manbone china he said tapping the saucerbought two cups in Francesouvenirs sourced at a thrift shopyou can’t find such nice ones here in the Netherlands He was standing in his kitchenmanaging the coffee machinea one cup of coffee at a time type he’d been on his own quite some yearsBy all accounts my exfatherinlawshould not have been standing in front of his coffee machine on his own two feetbut he even had a little bit of oat milk leftI noticed the fridge needed cleaninga smattering of fuzzies caught my eye as I closed the door He frothed the milk up and poured it outI set the…